Oh, piss.

I think I may want to become a urologist. Oh my God, what am I saying?? I know, me, right? Ridiculously ironic, right? It wasn't exactly what I had in mind when I decided to become a physician, but over the last year and a half, after a series of internal revelations, emotional roller-coasters and mental breakdowns, I've rationally and emotionally landed on something that I think may be for me, believe it or not. Here are a couple of reasons why this field of urinary tract fiends may be for me:

1) I want to treat young and old people and everyone in between and I can do that as a urologist.
2) I want to have a real physical tangible skill that I can perform in society - a surgical skill would be a good example of this. Urology is a surgical subspecialty.
3) I want to be more experienced than a family medicine doctor because I personally believe that naturopaths and homeopaths would already make great general practitioners. By going into family medicine, I personally feel like I would be stepping on their toes in terms of giving patients the care they need. I'd rather use my skills/knowledge towards something a little more specialized and necessary.
4) I've always had this impression that surgeons tend to be too aggressive when it comes to deciding whether a person should have surgery or not (usually in their favor) and this made me angry especially since many patients could have done well with alternative non-surgical approaches. The only way to fix this problem, in my opinion, is to become a surgeon who can safely call these shots when dealing with my own patients. Again, urology.
5) Integrative medicine, integrative medicine, integrative medicine. I want to do research on Complementary & Alternative Therapies in urology. Imagine standardizing the treatment for urinary tract infections with the use of holistic medicine!!! Oh, the possibilities!

Oh my god, look at this, I've already thought of five personal reasons for wanting to go into urology and I wasn't even trying. I cannot believe this. Can this be it? Have I finally found my calling in the male/female urinary tract? I guess only time (and a surgical clerkship) will tell...